Amphetamine

I just watched this film, it's a homosexual movie which merely its title interested me to take the trouble to watch it.



For the first 30 minutes I kept telling myself why did I waste my time watching this movie? It did not really grab my attention, but I kept watching it since I had nothing better to do. It has plenty of gay nudity inside which may disgust some people, but I find it bearable still.

It's about a story of a gay guy meeting a straight addict which for some reason managed to turn him slightly gay and then become straight again and then I don't know what anymore. There are some parts that confuse me, like why did the gay guy have sex with a lady, and how could the lady just forgive the straight guy after he raped her, and stuff like that.

But the weird thing is after I'd finished watching the film, I got emotional. Not to say boohoo emotional, but quite strong to affect my gaming routine. When I thought about a sentence said in the movie, my mood got affected.

It says 没有戒不了的毒，只有戒不了的爱, which is quite contradicting to what happened in the story cause I presume that the drug addict did not manage to get rid of his dependent towards amphetamine, and then in the end he just jump down from the bridge and committed suicide (which I think is caused by the hallucination after taking the drug). So I guess 毒 and 爱 can hardly be given up. Sigh I don't know why, but whenever I think of the sentence which does not tally with the storyline, I will get moody. WEIRD. Anyway there are plenty of abstracts in this movie which leaves the spectator to have their own imagination.

Maybe I'm sad cause they both couldn't get together, maybe it's cause of the bad ending, maybe it's the drug addiction, or the rape incident, but who knows, even I don't know. I still have 1 question though, to the drug addict, why did you commit suicide? It's a question that can never be answered since I'm not a friend of the producer or something lol.

Bangkok - Pattaya - Chiang Mai - Chiang Rai

Went to Thailand on the 4th of December till the 11th, a total of 8 days 7 nights trip. Considered quite long of a duration since it's just Thailand.

At first I really didn't wanna go. More like my mom forced me to cause she was kinda forced to go herself too, just to take care of my grandparents, and she said like she will be sleeping with another stranger in the same room cause no one is following her and kasihan stuff like that so I decided to follow her anyways.

And then I cried on the plane, cause of the small small things that happened from the airport to boarding the plane which caused me to stress up. And the lady sitting in front of me without any courteous looked at me thinking wtf is wrong with this selfish teen (that's what I assumed), and I stared back at her cause she stared at me first.

Fortunately they serve red wine on the plane and I drank 4 cups and mabuk mabuk when we reached Bangkok and I pushed the trolley of luggage in zigzag motion @.@

I couldn't really exactly remember what happened throughout the 8 days because I was too lazy to jot down and once I came back I was lazy to update my blog immediately too so.. I forgot.


One of the dogs in the temple, they are everywhere, but this 1 is particularly cute~


Kacau-mengacau hehe


The long neck woman selling scarves


And the family


Seal dancing~ It looks quite lame in the photo but they were so obedient kay!


Dolphins jumping loop. Also very geng but cannot be expressed much in this photo cause in real life that loop was so high up in air


Elephant kicking football, the Thais sure know how to train animals, what animals haven't they trained before?


Bai posey somemore


Elephant drawing tree, wow


Elephant riding a specially-made-for-it bike


Man standing on standing elephant


The white temple in somewhere, bought a new sunglasses~


The garden near the King's mom's house somewhere






Bangkok viewed from the 88th floor of the tallest building which I kinda forgot its name


The coral beach~


Paragliding and that's me, was hoping the photographer can have a bigger shot cause I really tried hard posing from the sky. Look at my artistic legs!


This is a fake Lady Gaga, actually a Man Gaga


Yup is the famous agua


So beautiful can't really tell the difference, another Thai's speciality



There are so many other photos in my phone but for some reason my pc is pms-ing so I can't transfer them into my pc, and now my bluetooth mouse cannot be detected as well so I am very bik qik now.

Results

And the results were finally out. It's totally out of what I'd predicted previously based on my method of studying. I just got a mere passing grade for all of my subjects. Not a credit, not even higher, just a pass.

'Well, as long as you passed, that's all that matter', people would usually tell me this to comfort me, but deep down somewhere there's this little voice that says 'it's not okay to just pass, aim higher!', and yeap, that should be the reality of life. Passing the course is not an option, getting a good grade is.

Unless if I don't plan to further my studies anymore and just stick to Bachelor of Science, yes just passing may be the minimal requirement, but what if I plan to pursue dentistry, or maybe physiotherapy? It's now not the matter of passing or not. The requirements are tremendous. They need an overall D grade to at least be able to apply, and that's not a guaranteed 100% enrollment too, and D stands for distinction, not that D grade we used to hear in primary or secondary schools.

So in UQ, a mere pass stands for the grade of 4. I got three 4s. 444. I hit the jackpot, but not 777 (HD), I got 444(P).

Just went to a gathering and heard quite a number of my friends talking about getting good grades and stuff. Yea I should congratulate them, but at the same time I wanna find a hole and hide myself and never come back out again and hopefully someone will fill up the hole with soil together with me or something.

What I cannot stand most is when someone gets a better grade than I am and kept complaining that they should get a higher grade. It's like getting a 90% out of 100 and questioning themselves why can't they get 100%. I don't mind that they have that thought because everyone should aim high, but why complain to me when I myself already feel like dying, do you want me to cheer you up? What about me? Who's cheering me up?

Sometimes people have problem but they themselves forget that other people too have their own problems.

Anyway let's just hope that I will get a better score in my 3rd year and hopefully everything will go according to plan. Ups and downs, they're just parts of life.

I just smelt my bro's crap

MY BRO JUST TOOK A DUMP IN THE TOILET AND HE DID NOT FLUSH IT. SUCKS TO WALK IN AND SMELL HIS POO.

Anyway today we initially planned to have a paintball activity in the afternoon. However as we reached TTsports, the person in charge said that they are doing maintenance on the paintball stuff throughout the week. So lucky for us to choose that particular day eh? So in the end we decided to just head to Sunway Pyramid for bowling.

And gosh was my bowling skill sucked, I totally returned what I'd learned during high school to my friends. I'm so sorry. I just scored 32 marks for it. I hope that only applies for my bowling and not the semester results I will be receiving tomorrow.


To think that I once scored 107. So ironic.

肺话 废话

在这一个繁忙的社会, 往往想停一步吸口气放松一下都难.
但最让人痛苦的一见件事, 就是听人家讲废话.

Okay typing Chinese is really damn hard so I resort to just finish this post with a mix of Chinese and English. What I hate most (and there is such a person in my family which means I will have to deal with his crap until either one of us leaves the house or dies) is people talking 废话. By 废话 I don't mean those crap that makes you chuckle or something. There are surely many types of 废话, I am no expert in analyzing how many types there are but I can surely differentiate them into 2 categories, the ones that makes you ROFLMAO and the ones that annoys the shit out of you. Unfortunately, today I had to deal with the 2nd 废话.

Okay let's use my brother as a subject. So once he went to the toilet, and then he realized the light was not switched off, and he presumed that I was the one who didn't turn it off (I'm sure he had done 1000^793494 times forgetting to switch off the lights but I'm just too lazy to deal with his shit and start a fight with him so I'll usually let him be, but this is another topic to be discussed so I'll move forward to today's topic about 废话). Then he went and confronted me about the toilet light because his life is too free and he wanted to start a fight or something.

So now the 废话 comes in. He asked me 'why do you always forget to switch off the lights?' Can anyone tell me how to reply to this 废话? I surely couldn't, so I kept silent. And then came another shot of 废话. 'Why do I not hear a reply?'

Mad stupid I wanna smack his face. He was actually expecting a fucking answer from his 废话!!!! Actually if you interpret (it's a no brainer) his 1st 废话, he had already answer the question by himself.

'Why do you always forget to switch off the lights?'

FORGET THEN DIDN'T SWITCH OFF LA DUDEEEEEE. 你说这废话杀伤力有多强?????????????

This is the problem of our society I tell you! The pollution has made our lungs so full of crap and we started to crap 废话 out! Okay I don't know how to end this post already, so I'll just embed a video about 废话lization.



Done~ 1 more paper and I'll be a free man =)))

Memories

Got inspired by one of my friends to reminisce the past. So I might as well jot down my past since I might just forget everything one day.

Kindergarten (I only write down what I remembered and who knows it might not be exactly what had actually happened) :
Slept in the bus once and forgot to bring my bag home.
Lost my exercise book and found it under the car seat when mom was sending me to kindergarten, and got punished by teacher for not doing the work assigned.
Not willing to be punished and shouted in class, and that lady dragged me to another class and locked me in there. =/
Got my chicken pox when an infected kid went to school, subsequently everyone in the house got it too.
Got beaten by another teacher when I started drawing before everyone does.

Standard 1:
Got beaten when forgot to bring Chinese textbook, had to read the passage even while crying.
Got slapped by a kid in school.
Got bullied by a kid (at this point I realized I had not have one pleasant memory storing in my brain at all)

Every time when something happens to me, I will always tend to remember the one that has a negative impact on myself. It is as though my life is a mess but in fact it's not. There are definitely people out there who lead a terrible life, like x10000 more terrible than mine. I'm so selfish! *Punches myself*

I should store unpleasant AS WELL AS pleasant memories because they are equally precious. For example I brought 5 different flavors of 'My beauty diary' mask, an eye cream, a BB cream. Those are good stuff lol. I also got myself a new phone, and I have the chance to study in Aussie, that's a good thing too.

So I guess I'll continue my memory post another day, or maybe never since they are all bad memories =/

Lil update

Picture post before resuming back to my studies!


Saw the mannequin wearing this shirt and my first thought was omg so nice but can I wear it with style? Was reluctant to go into the shop because it seemed expensive but I was wrong! Didn't buy it anyway cause I was poor =(


I particular like the white version better but they didn't have the M size. So I tried the black one instead and I still love max because of that tie~ so cute xD


Fake models lol


Playing with friend's glasses while having tutorial~


More playing~~~ I like the full framed one better

Done! Back to study T_T